this is probably my first and last journal entry. considering im thinking of dropping my account for a new one, where i can actually submit stuff, and start anew, pure, whatever clammy crap you can think of. Just to make it clear, im not able to enter any "deviations" of mine here, 1. because i have no scanner, yes i am technologically impaired and, 2. i thought starting out new would give me an easier way to do stuff with a clear head. Its a psychological thing, where i have to do what my head forces me, or i'll have a tainted conscience tailing my despondent arse.

this is turning out more as an actual entry than a public notation. it is entitled just so you know anyway... so while im actually on that note, just so you know, i'm feeling so caught up in my thoughts i can hardly breathe. yesterday was valentine's and it was blind bliss. today is sheer reality, another day where i find myself hands chucked deep in my pockets and head down, when im not falsely smiling with my friends. ignore this. im just being a complainative pansy.

Anyway, when i get a new profile, i'll notify whoever who wants to know. select few i guess. Btw im posting photographs, traditional art, scraps (mostly), and a few fics too. Alot of stuff, i know, but large range doesnt mean you're good. I'll stop now, before i reveal anything more. haha.. im sorry for whatever emotional waste you had to read, i reall am. catch you whenever.